As you all might know my brother was in a very bad car accident, he is doing a little better but still in a coma, they had to remove the left side of his scull because his brain is swelling so much, he crushed evry bone in his face, and has a bruised lung, he keeps on fighting all of the doctors which that is a very good sign of him resonding, they just put in a feeding tube, if you would like more and better updates on my brother you can go to the myspace we made for him.

www.myspace.com/davidhook42

thank you for all of your support.

<sup>I might have a job.

Im excited.

and I go to the gym now with Hannah.
getting buff.

Im excited for the p&c tonight.
and on saturday I might be going to see Carly.
love her.
and stay the night with her.
<33
sunday.
I have no clue.



and yeah.

I love you.
<3


Olivia.
miss you dear.
I better see you at the P&c<3</sup>

<sup>Today I feel so sick.
my throat hurts.
my head hurts
my nose is stuffy.
Im cold..but my face is really warm.
damn.

This weekend was fun.
I spent the whole weekend at gregs.

It was fun.
I love Angel hahah she is so cute.

The movie night was fun.
suprising but fun.

It was nice seeing Olivia haha and having drunk people call us.
oh man I miss seeing her.

I just want it to be summer so bad.

I feel so bad for Cam..not being able to do thing for Liz..she is a nice girl.
she doesn't desirve to go through that.
I know exactly how it feels to get in a fight with my mom and then you are the one that has to leave.


I hate being sick.

And my hannah bby is sick.
and this makes me upset seeing her sick.
I wish I could take that away from her.
damn it.
oh and ps Brendan is a huuuuge piece of shit.
and I hate him.
he honestly desirves to get the shit beat out of him.
the fucking flunked out piece of shit.

hmm..
yeah love you<3</sup>

Today has been amazing.
Greg is in a good mood..which makes me in a god mood.
it's good seeing him happy.
I missed the old greg.
<3

^{i like somone.
and only 2 people know.
:]]}

but I really need to get my shit together..with school i mean.
I need to pass this year.
and I want a report card that my dad can actually be proud of me..for once with my grades.

<sup>Saturday is movie night..and Im excited..I hope a certin somone will be there.
<3

and it will be like old times.and im excited about that also.
and the show im am exxxcited about.
awe I miss oliva<3333
soo much and i get to spend pretty much he whole night with her tomorrow.
:]]</sup>

Hollywood Undead


<sup>Old Memories hit me hard today.

I think Im going to start booking shows at the community center.
I just have to do a lot of convincing.

I hate having crushes.
I'm always the one to get crushed.

so I need to talk to my Olivia.
badly.

<3</sup>



I wish I could I could have quit you. I wish I never missed you, And told you that I loved you, every
time I Fucked you. The future that we both drew, and all the shit we've been through. Obssed with the
thought of you, the pain just grew and grew! How could you do this to me? Look at what I made for you,
it never was enough and the world is what I gave to you. I used to be love struck, now I'm just fucked
up

You feel that? I rip back, everytime you tried to steal that.You feel bad? you feel sad? Im sorry,
hell no fuck that! It was my heart, it was my life, it was my start, it was your knife. This strife
it dies, this life and these lies. And these lungs have sung this song for too long, and its true I
hurt too, remember I loved you.

So I told Caitlyn this morning about my situation.
which made me feel soo much better.

I cant wait for this weekend.

Hannah.
Me.
Caitlyn.
Kirstie.
Tristan.
Elliot.
Breaden.

cuuute.
then going to mass.
so exxxxxcited.
<3


I saw Olivia last niiight.
soo happpy.
she is to pretty.<3

Colin and Hannah probably the cutest thing.
LoveYou<3

Hmm today, has been an alrght day...Im thinking about a boy I really shouldn't be.
I can't help it.
and I think I like him..
Im sure I like him.

I have been thinking a lot today.
kind of keeping to myself..
maybe I should keep it like this..

I was looking around today at lunch.
and some of the people I was looking at.
I have been so mean to.
ugh I hate myself sometimes.

this weekened is going to be great.
my dad is leaving for the whole thing because he is going snowmobeling.
coool.
so I need to do something :]

hmm..what to do...

I miss a lot of people.
old times.

Olivia.
Douglas.
Cam.
Greg.
Shigga.
Jake.
Hannah.
Danny.
Corey.

i know i see them but i miss how things used to be..
i miss a lot of things.
<3

I need a venue for Febuary 10th.

for about 4 bands.
anyone have any ideas?
<333
leeet me knowwww pleeease!!!!

I was thinking a lot last night.
and i really need to do something with my life.
honestly.
I haven't accomplished anything.

But Im excited for tonight.
i get to see Miiiike and Steven.
it's going to be amazing.
<3


I think on sunday Im going to take a dredfull drive o windsor.
and got to room number 6 and apologize.
I have to work up a lot of courage to do what Im going to do.
without breaking down.
without yelling.
without any feelings.

Im so tired of not having a mom..Im so tired of having this empty hole in me.

but then again don't want to see her like that.
and don't know if i physiclly can..
Im scared I will have an overload of emotions and I wouldn't be able to look at her.
it makes me sick to my stomach knowing that she is doing this to herself.
she is so much better then this.
atleast I hope.
jesus.

I don't even know my own mother.

19:38] xbringmethemoonx: Ugh im just tired of breaking down when I see movies with there mom or something. I mean I act liek it doesn't bother me but it kills me..llike it's my fault she doesn't liek me..
[19:38] xbringmethemoonx: people say it's not your fault and shit..but how do they know..
[19:38] xbringmethemoonx: I just want to really tell her im sorry for everything and see if that will make her hig me and love me again.

finally broke down.
it hit me hard.
<3